(insert state here) or bust!

my life feels like this picture. a bunch of puzzle pieces that don't quite fit together yet...

my brain is kind of exploding right now so i need to get all of this out.

basically i have no idea what my next move in life is. i think i want to go to grad school. scratch...i KNOW i want to go to grad school, the question now is where? i've started applications at iu and penn state to pursue a master's degree in communications theory, because ultimately i want to get my phd to be a professor. however hpu just announced (and i knew that this was coming, but i guess i never really thought about it) that the master's program in strategic communication is now accepting applications. and now it's like an annoying thought in the back of my mind. i don't know what to do....

i've never really been interested in strategic communication, but after working for a year, i've been thinking that i may enjoy working in public relations. but then i think about how it would probably mean another 9-5 office job, and i just don't know if i can do that. but then i wonder if it's doing something that i really love and enjoy, it wouldn't be that bad, would it? and even if i get my master's in strategic communication, that doesn't mean that i can't continue on to get my phd in communication theory does it? but do i really want to stay in high point? just the other day i was thinking how i need to get out of this town...so why the sudden change in heart?

however, on the other hand i've fallen in love with the program at iu. the topics of research that the professor's are interested in are on point with what i love. and i've been talking to alicia and she's thinking of staying in bloomington and we could live together and that would be amazing! i know that i would be in a great community, which is something that i've been missing. plus i just love iu's campus. it's beautiful. and bloomington is close to chicago...well, a lot closer than i am now.

and then there's penn state. i've grown up with penn state being shoved in my face just because i'm from pennsylvania. i also went to soccer camp there in high school and didn't like it. but they have a great program. and i'd be closer to home and closer to friends at home. and they have a great football program. i've really really missed football.

i know that i just posted that i know God has a bigger plan for me and everything, and i still know that. it's just frustrating when you think you know which direction you're headed and you're barreling ahead in that direction, and all of the sudden another road presents itself. i want a gps for life.




ORRRR do i want to go abroad and teach english??? like in south korea?

just another option that seems to be stalking me. like bombing my email....