Psalm 9:10

And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you.

Psalm 9:10

hmm. a lot to think about. so since my last post bid day happened, my birthday happened, getting into the flow of the school year happened, arguments with my mother happened, good conversations with project people happened...and so on and so forth.

so confession time: i don't think that i've been fully seeking the Lord since being back at school, and i think realizing that explains a lot about a lot of things that i've been concerned with. i've been feeling confused and lonely and no wonder right? i haven't been very good about keeping in the word, i haven't been trusting the Lord with my problems. honestly, i've kind of reverted back to my whole control issues, thinking that i can only allow the Lord to work in my life where i want him to. stupid silly me. who am i to say when God can and can't work in my life? and why would i even want to do that? i've been so consumed with trying to gain control that i have missed the beauty of God's love. of his control and of his glorious and ultimate plan for me.

i met with abby today and just talking things out with her helped me to realize a lot of this. she's also challenged me to smooth out some issues with people that i've been dealing with as well as share my faith with some of the new girls in the sorority. ahhh! scary! i'm excited though. i think that i need to be challenged. i wasn't challenged that much last semester, so it'll be good.

so i need to actively seek the Lord. he will reveal his plan to me on his time, not mine.

long time no see

i still fail at posting regularly at this. hopefully though after this week, which is formal recruitment week for all sororities on my campus, my schedule will settle down and i will be able to get back into a more normal routine, including updating this!

i'm doing this new devotional. i had to read this poem the one day and loved it so much that i thought i'd share:

i thank You God

i thank You God for most this amazing

day: for the leaping greenly spirits of trees

and a blue true dream of sky; and for everything

which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,

and this is the sun's birthday; this is the birth

day of life and of love and wings: and of the gay

great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing

breathing any~lifted from the no

of all nothing~human merely being

doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ear awake and

now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

~e.e. cummings

i'm also doing this thing called project 365 will i take a picture a day for a year. i tried to do it last year and failed, but i'm trying to be more disciplined this year with my daily routine and schedule, so i'm hoping for more success. i'm posting it here. i've been doing good so far!

i promise more updates after this week. :)