Psalm 9:10

And those who know your name put their trust in you, for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you.

Psalm 9:10

hmm. a lot to think about. so since my last post bid day happened, my birthday happened, getting into the flow of the school year happened, arguments with my mother happened, good conversations with project people happened...and so on and so forth.

so confession time: i don't think that i've been fully seeking the Lord since being back at school, and i think realizing that explains a lot about a lot of things that i've been concerned with. i've been feeling confused and lonely and no wonder right? i haven't been very good about keeping in the word, i haven't been trusting the Lord with my problems. honestly, i've kind of reverted back to my whole control issues, thinking that i can only allow the Lord to work in my life where i want him to. stupid silly me. who am i to say when God can and can't work in my life? and why would i even want to do that? i've been so consumed with trying to gain control that i have missed the beauty of God's love. of his control and of his glorious and ultimate plan for me.

i met with abby today and just talking things out with her helped me to realize a lot of this. she's also challenged me to smooth out some issues with people that i've been dealing with as well as share my faith with some of the new girls in the sorority. ahhh! scary! i'm excited though. i think that i need to be challenged. i wasn't challenged that much last semester, so it'll be good.

so i need to actively seek the Lord. he will reveal his plan to me on his time, not mine.