heart-filled.

these verses have really helped my heart the past few days. i thought i'd share. :)

This God--his way is perfect; the word of the Lord proves true; he is a shield for all those who take refuge in him.  "For who is God, but the Lord? And who is a rock, except our God? This God is my strong refuge and has made my way blameless. 

~2 Samuel 22: 31-33

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 

 ~2 Corinthians 12:9 

 

home is where your heart is...

i don't know where my heart is right now. kinda all over the place i'd say. the weekend in indiana was wonderful. it was so great to see friends whom i haven't seen since the end of project. it was also so cool to witness the marriage of becca and will.

since being back i've just been bumming around. spending a lot of time in coffee houses so i have internet. right now i'm in winston salem at a coffee house with abby. i just feel kinda blah. i did not want to leave indiana. i hate that i'm so far away from so many people that i care about so much. it's rough.

it felt like leaving and saying goodbye to everyone this time was so much harder then it was in december. i'm not sure why. i think that maybe it's because i'm not longer in school. i have a job. i'm about to start a scary part of my life. a lot of them have at least another year of school and more flexible schedules so it's easier for them to travel to see each other. i'm stuck with a 9-5 job and a not so flexible schedule. i'm stuck in north carolina. over nine hours away from everyone.

i want to be back in indiana...or at least closer to indiana, somewhere in the mid-west. i think right now that's where my heart is right now...

here's the day you hoped would never come...

i go back to north carolina. i start a new chapter of my life tomorrow. i enter the 'real world' and start my big person job on june 1. i'm scared. as much as being home drives me crazy i love the comfort of it. i love spending time with my family no matter how much they get on my nerves.

i just really don't like change. this is a big change. a big scary change. big. scary. change. i know i can do it. i know that this is what i'm supposed to be doing. God has proved that to me on several occasions. however, that does not make it any less scary.

it's the final countdown...

i graduate from college in two days. man has the time flown by. i'm not going to get all emotional and sappy in this post. i'm not that kind of person. plus i'm still processing my feelings. but i did find this quote that i thought was extremely applicable to graduation.

"we do not understand the intricate pattern of the stars in their courses, but we know that He who created them does, and that just as surely as He guides them, He is charting a safe course for us." ~Billy Grahm