i don't know where my heart is right now. kinda all over the place i'd say. the weekend in indiana was wonderful. it was so great to see friends whom i haven't seen since the end of project. it was also so cool to witness the marriage of becca and will.
since being back i've just been bumming around. spending a lot of time in coffee houses so i have internet. right now i'm in winston salem at a coffee house with abby. i just feel kinda blah. i did not want to leave indiana. i hate that i'm so far away from so many people that i care about so much. it's rough.
it felt like leaving and saying goodbye to everyone this time was so much harder then it was in december. i'm not sure why. i think that maybe it's because i'm not longer in school. i have a job. i'm about to start a scary part of my life. a lot of them have at least another year of school and more flexible schedules so it's easier for them to travel to see each other. i'm stuck with a 9-5 job and a not so flexible schedule. i'm stuck in north carolina. over nine hours away from everyone.
i want to be back in indiana...or at least closer to indiana, somewhere in the mid-west. i think right now that's where my heart is right now...
come back to us!!!
ReplyDelete..you could always go on staff at BG :) We could use a sweet spirited gal like you :)
I completely understand!! Both the weirdness of no longer being a student and the sadness of being far away from people you really care about are intense and difficult emotions. But I can say that although adulthood hasn't been anything like I imagined, I generally enjoy it and am surprised by how God shows up. And those people who are really important to you will make a way to be a part of your life for years to come. Oh yeah, and I have to defend NC as the greatest state ever. So, NC is the greatest state ever!! ;-)
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