facebook was taking over my life. as sad and as pathetic as that sounds, it's true. i found myself sitting on my computer late at night just randomly clicking and wasting so much time! completely useless! i was also getting caught up in drama that was being posted all over facebook and was getting upset by it. and then i realized that it was stupid that i was letting facebook have that much control over my emotions and mood, so i kind of snapped and de-activated it.
this semester has been kind of difficult for me in a lot of ways. i've been feeling distant and disconnected from phi mu, and a lot have negative thoughts have been on my mind, which never really happened before. i have zero motivation to do school work or go to class. i haven't been motivated to get in the word, or to even spend time with the Lord, which is just really bad...and disappointing. if i'm having all of the negative thoughts and feelings why wouldn't i turn to my Father for help? i've just been so overwhelmingly apathetic, which isn't me.
as stupid as it sounds taking a break from facebook has really helped me to refocus. i'm not checking it several times a day so i'm not faced with the drama, and i can honestly say that i don't really miss it. when i do get facebook back at the end of Lent, it will be more to use as a tool for communication rather than to consume massive amounts of time from my life.
i'm working on a year long reading plan for the Bible and i've started reading the Chronicles of Narnia, which i've never read. it's nice to take time to read some each night...time that any other time i would have wasted clicking aimlessly on facebook.
on a completely other note and update on my life: i will be staying in north carolina and in the high point area after graduation. i have a job. now i just have to work on an apartment, roommate, and car. i can't believe that i'm becoming an adult. ordering my graduation cap and gown was so surreal. i'm almost done with college! crazy!
i'm excited though. i'll get to still be around people who mean a lot to me. i'll be doing a job that i think i'll enjoy working for a boss that i know and am comfortable around. i can get more involved with the Cru movement here at HPU from a different aspect as well as stay with the Journey. it just feels like so many things are falling together, and i'm not quite sure how to handle it. it makes me happy, but it also makes me anxious.
another side note: the winter olympics rock! i love snowboarding!
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