wake up.

proverbs 16:3- commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established. (thanks becky <3 )

lately that's been really hard to do. in my last post i thought that i had finally figured out what the Lord wanted me to do with my life and my future. now i'm not so sure. i feel like all of these other options are being thrown at me and i don't know what to do with them. my one friend told me about mission year which is working in inner cities (like Chicago) for a year, and you can even get a master's degree through the program, which essentially, i want to go to grad school and obtain a master's degree. but then there's the possibility that i can get a job here at high point working for the school. i'm not sure that working for the school is what i really want, but i'd be getting paid, possibly have health benefits, plus the cost of housing is cheap and affordable. it would be a nice job to save up some money for if i do want to move away to grad school.

i'm still going to apply to intern with cru because i still believe that God was/is calling me to that. but now i guess i'm seriously considering other options. i'm just going to apply and see where i should go from there. who knows. i may not even get accepted, then i'll know for sure that that's not what God wanted for me.

God has really been challenging me this week. everything from phi mu stuff to just my workload for class. it's been exhausting and frustrating. i got to talk to jess on the phone though which was awesome and so encouraging. we're both kind of in the same spot in ways, so it was nice to talk it out with her. i miss her and my roommates a lot.

i'm so ready for fall break. and the road trip to iu. :)