AHHH! 5 DAYS!!!

bring on the anxiety/panic attacks! i can't believe that it's so close to my time to leave...i'm freaking out! it's a mixture of excitement and nervousness. i have this horrible fear that i'm not going to get along with anyone. and that when we split into teams/groups for things i'm going to be like the kid from dodgeball in elementary school. you know the one that is standing on the wall anxiously awaiting to be picked...but in the end is the last one that no one wants. yeah. i don't want that to be me. i know that i'm overreacting and being irrational. but that's me.

i found out who my roommates are, which is pretty cool. i'm the oldest one, and i'm living in an apartment with three other girls. Jess is from michigan, Francesca is from Denver (where Matti's on project...i thought that was pretty cool!), and Emily is from illinois. our apartment is on the second floor. here's the apartment building that we'll all be staying in. it's pretty sick. i can't wait.

i still don't have a job. but i'm not letting that freak me out too much. it seems like no one has really had luck and i think a lot of that has to do with the fact that most of us applied online. i'm hoping that once i get there and actually go job hunting in person i'll have more success. i know. i have to trust God. i'm learning. baby steps, baby steps...

3 weeks!

only three weeks till i leave! i booked my departing and returning flights today which relieves some anxiety. i was lucky enough to get both non-stop, which is nice because i hate the long lay-overs. i figured it out today and i have about half of my support raised, which is good, but nerve racking at the same time. i found a mission trip scholarship that i'm applying for so i'm praying that i will receive some support from that as well. raising support has been one of the biggest tests that God has given me, just in trusting Him to provide and be patient. it's amazing to see everything that God is showing me and i'm not even in chicago yet!

a month and three days!

so i will be leaving for chicago in a little over a month...and i'm so nervous. i'm scared about raising all of my support and i'm just anxious about going away for so long for the summer! i'm really excited though too. i can't wait to meet new people and just see how God works in my life. it's going to be such an unforgettable experience, and i just can't wait for it.